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Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Enough of dreams and school and hall and the number of meetings i have to attend. Can't believe I actually shedded tears over my dream. But it's only a dream. What's with me? Isn't there anything else in life I can jot down, instead of the usual school, hall and JF? I have a boring life. I need a LIFE! Can't believe I can motivate myself simply by telling myself everyday that I must push myself harder and over my limits. I thought I am and was a slacker. As long as I don't see him and I don't know what he is doing, I'll keep worrying about him, about us. In the next few months, life will just be about studying and CMB. I miss watching movies. I miss eating Haagen Daaz and hanging out at Esplanade's Haagen Daaz. I think that's a perfect place for chatting, slacking, reading. I miss long phone chats with shihua. I miss cable tv where my favourite movies are. I miss aimless strolls, and aimless window-shopping. I miss hanging around at the airport. I miss sitting at the viewing area and watching the planes take-off and land. I miss ice-cream buffet at swensens. I don't know whether there's anyone out there who really understands me. And I don't know whether there's anyone out there whom I can feel un-shy with. I'll try not be such a crybaby. I'll try to control myself more, emotionally. I always think that I can endure and withstand and tolerate all rubbish and nonsense, pain and hurt. And so I should show the same strength in my character and principles. ?! No conclusion everyday about things. I'm tired. Posted at 3:30 AM |
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