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Sunday, February 06, 2005
Oh I'm excited about the coming CNY week and also about rockfest! Rockfest which means College Rock Festival will be on 5 March, Saturday 4 to 10pm at Youth Park! Come down and support ok!! I've got to be there at like.... 8 plus in the morning all the way until 11pm... whaaa... sure tiring.. having to manage all the bands and all.... Had Rockfest meeting with Giam from OMS and the CFA programme coordinators... They were really nice people... and as we were discussing and planning all the deadlines... it really got me excited.. cos' finally I'm gonna reap the results... it really feels so good to see that things are getting on the way... and soon my posters and postcards will be out the week after CNY!! Publicity will be out! And I can't wait to publicize to the whole hall about Rockfest and also all over campus.... At least, people will finally know that there'll be a rockfest just like last year... cos' not many people are aware of rockfest or even remember it... Most of the time I'm working behind the closed doors of my room.... settling all the emails and paperwork, doing all the thinking by myself... reminding people of the things they need to submit to me... hmmm such quiet work.. who will know that I actually spend a lot of time in my room organising such a big event... Well now you know! Then i had chicken and mushroom pie and a hot latte at Dome (we had rockfest meeting there) and it was on tab... haha.... cos official meeting means the food and drinks are free haha.... Well things I'm gonna do this week..... 1. Go shopping for nice presents. 2. Finish my sewing. 3. Finish my sociology and econs readings and do my research for animal behaviour project. 4. Go out. 5. Enjoy CNY... yippeeee... I really hope that I'll have a good week ahead... It's not good enough to just plan and plan... have perfect plans but then not carry them out... Have in mind so many nice things, but don't make enough effort to achieve them. Not easy to juggle and remember so many things. Sometimes tired from thinking and wishing that others can help me think and contribute automatically. All this talk... about 'planning and doing' really triggers many other thoughts. I still find it hard to let go and still trying to struggle and conceal my own unhappiness. All the talk about allowing God to take charge and letting Him help me rise up from my personal failures and a past which I tend to allow myself to drown in. No self-pitying here. I'm not the sort that will sympathize with myself. But when everything small thing is capable of triggering sad thoughts of the past.... I will feel so upset. Because I think so much, I wish so much that I know what other people are thinking that I just ridiculously spend time guessing and figuring out what they're all thinking. Silly girls do silly things like this. I wish I can just snuggle under a cosy blanket with someone now... Melancholy sums up my situation. Happiness is most of the time, short-lived. Or put it this way, I have more troubling issues than happy things. Think I need turn to God's words more often... Blahzzzzzz........ Posted at 2:25 PM |
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