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Monday, April 11, 2005
Blogger's very retarded sometimes.... Ok Sunday's been a good day generally, though I really hate writing the essay on socialist china. I was just dumping all the information i found for my part, seriously believing that every part could be used to answer the question. Sigh, my heart wasn't even on the essay... Anyway I'm feeling quite stressed about the exams.... sucks!! I'll never be able to finish mugging.... as usual uh-huh... really hope my CAPs won't decline any further, given that this sem's modules are more manageable for me, I just need my mugging power!!! As tough as it may get, I'll try really hard to stay on the right track and do honours in the future. Econs is so demoralising... so freakin' competitive... the modules that never fail to pull my caps down. During weekend, the level 5 girls caught PEEPING TOM in the toilet!! DISGUSTING PERVERT been lurking around since long time ago... This is what i mean when i said hall is dangerous. OK, so the girl who caught him red-handed was called diana and she saw him peeping at someone bathing, so she shouted "what are you doing..???", called him "PERVERT!", then the PERVERT went up to her, gave her a pat on her head and said "don't worry, it's okay...", and then he walked out... and diana lost track of him. In less than 5 mins, the whole block was mobilised to track him down... but sigh he escaped!! WTH!!!!! STUPID DISGUSTING SHITTY man.... someone should just kick his dick.... ought to be castrated and burnt in hell.... This peeping-tom thingie has been going on for like very long... since last year... till now... who knows when he will appear again...??!! There have always been news about peeping toms... but they somehow always got away...!! Maybe there are a lot of them, not just one, they're a peeping-toms, peeping-dicks, peeping-harrys syndicate... I realized I have to be really very clear-minded for the next few weeks, better know very well what i'll be doing, not lose focus... people who know me very well will know what can make me lose concentration... Not an easy thing to do, seeing how easily I don't stay on track nowadays. Studying is fun right?! But... preparing for exams isn't fun at all.... I need lots of confidence in many things... in myself especially. As if life isn't demoralizing enough.... I'm just a girl seeking self-worth, trying to raise my own self-esteem. It's true I get demoralized easily... by little things here and there that discourage me and make me feel that whatever I do or whatever I plan will ultimately become meaningless. Perhaps I don't know what's truly meaningful for me, or is there a set of standards that defines meaningful..? I hope I'll always be on the right track... there are many things I do not know, many things I asked myself but I don't know how to answer them... Maybe other people can give me answers? Or do I have to take time and find out as god guides me along.... And I just realised that being with jf no matter what he's busy with, is simple enough to brighten up my day. Yawnzzzzz........ Posted at 6:07 AM |
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